Today was seeing this show on "mysoju" in the show the it was this last day of the girls teenage life, she was turning 20 years old as it was her birthday the next day..
I'm really envious her for having such good friends. They actually wanted to celebrate her birthday for her but because there was this competition on her birthday and that was major in her life. She didn't know whether to take part in it or not but then her friends pushed her on and say they will celebrate her birthday the next day. The teacher code "you really have good friends". I don't know why but i was really touched, i guess sincerity really is the best thing in this world or at least i feel 'it' is!
i guess the saying is true.."never ever expect much..unless you'll really sure of the people around you" i guess this is also the reason why i close my heart..why i stop believing in others and not give my all because i already guessed what's the outcome. Maybe it's because i never felt that sincerity or that love from the bottom of others heart before.
But this morning I'm really very happy there's this one people that made me felt the love and sincerity as a friend from the bottom of her heart. today morning that people that call me back i wanna say Thank You so much you may not believe it but I'm tearing now. I never expected it to be her. I was not as close to her as compared to my other friends but she made me feel like i existed for the first time after 3 years ago i feel that i can trust others again not even my parents made me feel this way.
I think now i can be that cheerful me that i hide inside once again. No one of my past three year classmate had ever seen that side of me, maybe only zicheng during cca and all my cca mates but after i got in the same class as her in sec 5A there was never once that she saw my fun side again after i stop going cca.
Nanyang poly will be a new start for me..BUT FOR NOW ALL I WANNA DO IS TO SAY A BIG THANK YOU MAISY! you made me believe again because i know you are not only saying but you will turned up that day..